38 days - why why why

38 days to go until I'm 40. 
Why the hell am I so lazy?  Why the hell can't I do what I need to do to be where I want to be on July 1st?  Why can't I EVER meet a goal?  Why do I get so distracted? 
I won't be at 140 like I wanted.  I wont even be in the 150's.  I'll be right where I am now - 160 something and disappointed in myself.
And you can't tell  me anything - Oh Sheri you can do it.  I know I can but I just don't.  Sheri you just need to be focused - duh, I can't focus on anything! 
I don't have time I don't have the energy.  I'm just lazy.  And what do lazy people accomplish?  Nothing!