33 days

I'm going to attempt to slap myself into being better starting today.
I was going to wait until tomorrow, but the scale screamed, NO TODAY!!!!
So far - 1 cup of coffee with 2 tbsp hazelnut creamer.  And I plan on going for a walk to bike ride today.
Yesterday in Best Buy my son and I were looking at DS games.  In the pre-owned section, I saw this

It was only $4.99, so I thought, well both my kids have a DS so I'll let them use the ipad when I want to use their DS.  ha ha ha

I can't post today and say something about Memorial Day.  I looked on the website, but I could not find the story I saw on the news last night.  There is a group called tag, or something similar, for family's that lost someone in the military.  Yesterday they all wrote notes to their lost loved one, attached it to a balloon, and then let them go.  There was a little boy who just said, "I really miss my dad.  He didn't do anything wrong.  He was a good man."  OMGG I tear up just now thinking about it.

Remember today, those who fought for our freedom, and the sweet ones they left behind.

38 days - why why why

38 days to go until I'm 40. 
Why the hell am I so lazy?  Why the hell can't I do what I need to do to be where I want to be on July 1st?  Why can't I EVER meet a goal?  Why do I get so distracted? 
I won't be at 140 like I wanted.  I wont even be in the 150's.  I'll be right where I am now - 160 something and disappointed in myself.
And you can't tell  me anything - Oh Sheri you can do it.  I know I can but I just don't.  Sheri you just need to be focused - duh, I can't focus on anything! 
I don't have time I don't have the energy.  I'm just lazy.  And what do lazy people accomplish?  Nothing!